I'm feeling lately, like I'm crashing and burning.
I separated from my wife of 18 years in March, my mom died the same month, got divorced this month, my grandma died a few days ago.
I've had a ton of anxiety, depression, and executive dysfunction...and I feel like I just need a win. I can program, I can do a ton of things, I just can't seem to land a client.
Lately, I've been doing uber eats / doordash to stay afloat and my car died.
I'm going to be homeless, without even a car tomorrow, and I'm clueless about what options I even have anymore.
I just need a loan for a rental car, and I could get back on my feet. I've only been doing delivery gigs like 4 days, and it looks like I could definitely cover my bills, child support, and alimony on it, plus the cost of the rental car per week, if I could just make it one full week.
I'm always finding myself falling to this spot, where I'm make it or break it. I can't live on the street, I don't think I survive that. I have no network of friends, or loved ones I'm close to. Literally the only person I talk with lately is my therapist.
I'm in Utah, if that helps..I could use any advice on finding like some agency or something that might help or something. My email's in my profile if you want to reach out...
My rent is $70 per night, I need $400 on credit card (need to pay off my secured card) for the rental (deposit plus fees). I charge $70 per hour for coding, but I can't find clients lately, and I'm out of time. This is so frustrating.
Anyone else finding times are tough lately? Is it all the tech layoffs?
this is all driving me into a terrible depression, besides, I am now using an old laptop that howls in the heat, and I have to live on $150 a month, half of which is payment for housing, what can I do then? I know. I don’t have money for therapy, and they didn’t teach us to go to therapists here; you do everything yourself from birth without the help of others.
people are gloating and angry, because there is a total lack of money. What saves me? hobby!
When I found out that a refugee I know abroad started a free project - I started making templates for websites (I love HTML4 and even 3.2 that would work under DOS), and over the last 3 months I have made more than 60.
Depression is in the blood of Ukrainians, hopelessness, I've always had this. If not for this, would I go abroad to work? No! many are lucky to be born in countries where they pay for work and do not need to leave. I worked abroad for 15 years, moving home, my son hardly remembered me, I divorced my wife in my 10th year because she slept with another man.
During the coronavirus period (this was before the war), I sent all the money I had home because my mother got sick with breast cancer, all my savings went towards surgery. I no longer have close people except her. that's how we live. You're not the only one. brace yourself.