Thank you for sharing your own similar experience and understanding me.
It's difficult for me to explain abuse without being stifled, but I have a feeling while everyone online talks about telling you to stop victim blaming, the abused one is victim blaming themselves anyway. It's why it's so traumatic, I replayed the situation to make sense of it, and it hurt every time, until I got out of that mental rut.
It's funny, when bad things happen I dismiss other problems I had because I had a worst one before so it helped with stresses.
It's difficult for me to explain abuse without being stifled, but I have a feeling while everyone online talks about telling you to stop victim blaming, the abused one is victim blaming themselves anyway. It's why it's so traumatic, I replayed the situation to make sense of it, and it hurt every time, until I got out of that mental rut.
It's funny, when bad things happen I dismiss other problems I had because I had a worst one before so it helped with stresses.