I've consciously moved on from ruminating on the past and replaying alternate timelines in my mind, to thinking about what I actually can change: the present, and the future.
Life is a blind let's play. It's more fun to watch exactly because you don't know what's going to happen. Having the ability to play it again would destroy consequence, and thus meaning, to one's actions.
Spending extraordinary amounts of time thinking about the past got me literally nowhere. When I realized this, practically every problem in my life started unwinding and I found friends, love, passion, work, and peace.
Once I came to the conclusion that past actions only have a limited affect on the immediate present - like real genuine hooks versus memories of stuff - then life is a series of situational decisions. Trying to get them all “right” is a fool’s errand leading to heartache. On the flip side, it gives lots of chances to try and live out personal principles and perspectives on how to operate in this life, and takes away the guilt of existing with consciousness a little, and for me, makes each day a bit more fun.
It’s almost like being able to walk through walls in Doom (clipping life) - very powerful and a lot of people look on and wonder “how do you do that?” because I am a genuinely happy guy.
Agree. I often tell myself, and others, when bad things happen: Eventually, something good will happen, and you had to go through the bad things to get there.
That said, it’s hard not to regret getting a real band together while my voice was still there.
Life is a blind let's play. It's more fun to watch exactly because you don't know what's going to happen. Having the ability to play it again would destroy consequence, and thus meaning, to one's actions.
Spending extraordinary amounts of time thinking about the past got me literally nowhere. When I realized this, practically every problem in my life started unwinding and I found friends, love, passion, work, and peace.