My depression was quite humbling. More humbling was experiencing happiness or the first time since I was 6 years old (when my parents started medicating me for ADHD which I now feel was a mis-diagnosis). My depression had made me a poor performer for years, rendering me almost catatonic after my wife left me.

Drugs made me happy. I'm willing to bet that legal drugs would have done the same, but well, that's just not the route I choose. After my acid-trip I spent a year smoking ganja, exercising, and facing some incredibly hard truths about myself and my life.

I spent 2010 in a ganja-induced haze. I managed to somehow do about $100k in consulting, but mostly I exercised, chased women around, fell in love, lost 100 lbs, and searched for happiness wherever I could, and usually found it alone sitting on the roof of some office building in SOMA (I also learned how to bump locks).

Now that I'm feeling more capable, I've put myself back on the job market, and have discovered that most start-ups aren't doing anything that will bring me joy. Today every new company is a groupon clone or a heroku clone. I just sat down with yet another groupon clone, and am waiting for a heroku clone to come and "interview me" in a few minutes.

Fuck it, if business in 2011 means talking about cloning shit, I'd rather talk about sativa clones than groupon clones. These bring me more happiness than products who exist only to convince consumers to consume more.

Let's do a cannabis-related start-up. Weedmaps owns the "find me a place to get me high" market, and they suck donkey dick. I've got a designer, a fellow stoner, who wants to help me build a better weedmaps. She's rad. I even have a guy who is willing to put $35k-$50k into helping build this, plus I personally don't need income for a few years, so I have options.

I'm looking for a coder who is a better coder than I am who also is more functional when there's a vaporizer next to her/his keyboard. I'm hoping one of my friends will read this, and think "hey that writing tone sounds like so and so.. I didn't know he smoked too".

Maybe we'll do a weedmaps killer .. or perhaps we'll just get high together while we work on separate projects, "Co-Working With Cannabis" sounds more fun than working for Google, what can I say?